chapter 2
a golden bell starts ringing, chapter 2
“It was only a few days after the both of us auditioned for Nobuta wo Produce when the first incident happened. Kazu and me waited anxiously in front of the big bosses' office. Standing side by side I suddenly noticed him fidgeting.
“Do you think I passed?” he asked nervously.
“Of course you did, you’re a brilliant actor Kazu,” I smiled.
“But why did Johnny-san call for us then?”
“I don’t know,” I shrugged.
Then we were called in. To my surprise Yamapi was already inside the office. Well, somehow it wasn’t that surprising, but I was still surprised to see him there.
“Yamashita, Kamenashi, Akanishi, I will now announce who got the role for that drama. But beforehand I want you to do something. Kamenashi...”
“Yes?”
“Kiss him,” he pointed at Pi. Both of them looked shocked at first but then Kame walked over to Pi and kissed him.
Hungrily.
And Pi kissed him back.
I was shocked, so really shocked. Kazuya and me were in a relationship – or so I thought – and I would have never expected him kissing someone beside me. And even right in front of my eyes.
“Well, Akanishi. You want that role? Do something for it,” the old man told me.
“I - I don’t want this!”, I shouted and ran out of the room.
In the hallway I leaned against the wall and slid down to the ground. I was so mad. Angry about all of them. Johnny-san. Kame. Pi. A few minutes later they came out. I stood up and tried to look as calm as possible.
“Jin! I got the job,” Kame smiled at me like nothing had happened.
Suddenly I needed to shout. “Don’t say my name out of that mouth. You kissed him! You fucking kissed him right in front of my eyes like you wanted to eat him!”
“And you!” I turned to Pi. “You even kissed him back!”
Then I turned around and walked away. I can still hear them calling my name to stop me but I didn’t turn around.”
The reporter looks almost as devastated as I felt back then. Or is it just me trying to transfer my feelings into her. “That’s tough. Seeing the one you love kissing your best friend and your best friend even kissing him back.”
“Yeah. I was really mad at both of them. And desperate on top of that.
What was I supposed to do? I really loved Kame and lost my best friend over it. It made me mad. I was desperate for an answer to the question of what I was to do.
After I arrived home that afternoon I took my motorbike and started for a drive. Of course I was too fast, it just had to happen. In one curve I lost control over my motorbike and slid along the road. My very first thought was, ‘That’s it. I’m going to die now.’
But surprisingly I only caught a few scratches and bruises right next to my left knee. Except for my left hand. By sliding along the road I burned a hole in my glove and hurt my hand.”
I’m telling her about my accident and show her the scar on my left hand.
“Oh, so it’s actually a scar. There were speculations about it. Whether it’s a scar or a birthmark or even something else.” As if I hadn't known that before.
“The next morning I went to the company I had a bandage on my left hand because I was reluctant to go to the hospital only to have some scratches treated. It was highly visible that something must have happened.
He waited for me at the reception. The one person I just didn't want to talk to. My so-called 'best friend'. Really a shame if our friendship would end like this, was my thought as I saw his miserable face. He saw the bandage and seemed to be worried.
“Oh my God Jin! What happened to your hand? Please don’t tell me you’ve hurt yourself because of that incident yesterday,” he looked almost pleadingly at me and seemed to be even more miserable.
I snapped at him. “Just don’t talk to me.”
“Jin, please. Let me explain it,” he begged.
“Explain what? That my boyfriend kissed you and you kissed him back in front of my eyes?!” I shouted again.
“I- I didn’t want to do it. He forced me. You know how Johnny-san is. He told me to return any action Kame would do. He talked about Uchi - that he would never let him return to work if I wouldn’t do what he said. It was for Ryo, Jin. You know how his condition was after Uchi got suspended.
But I know something. He tries to separate the two of you. Maybe not only you two, maybe even us. Please, it had hurt so much when I saw your expression yesterday.” I knew he said the truth, I could see it in his eyes.
I was kind of surprised by the things he told me but on other hand I wasn’t.
Instead I told him the reason for my bandage eventually, “I had an accident with my bike. I drove too fast.”
“Are you alright?” Even his voice sounded worried and it made me nod as an answer.
“And about yesterday,” I began and he looked at me curiously. “I understand now why you did it but I’m still mad at you.” I tried the serious look that I had practiced in front of the mirror.
“But you’ll forgive me?” he asked hopefully.
“Yeah, I’ve probably already forgiven you.” A small smile crawled over my face.”
“So you and Yamashita-kun made up very fast after the incident?” she asks.
“He had his reason. And this reason involved one of our best friends. After Uchi got suspended Ryo was like a living leech. He barely ate and cried a lot. It was like they’ve pulled out a part of his heart. It took us weeks to make him feel better. I understand why Pi didn’t want to see that happening again.”
Understanding dawns on her face, too. “Oh, I see. I guess it's understandable.”
A small pause.
“But what about Kamenashi-kun?”
“I went to our dressing room after the talk with Pi. All of KAT-TUN was already inside and they greeted me quickly when I walked in. Only Kame seemed to notice me and stared at my bandaged hand. He got up and walked over.
“What happened to your hand?” Again that worried tone. I wanted to pull my hand out of his grasp and shout ‘Don’t you ever touch me again’ but instead I remembered Pi’s words ‘He tries to separate the two of you’ and said after a bit of an awkward silence, “I had an accident but I’m totally fine. Don’t worry about it, Kame.”
He looked surprised and a bit curious at me. He told me later he had expected that I wouldn’t talk to him.
“Let’s talk later, okay?” I’ve told him and he knew what about. He nodded in reply. That’s all we talked until later that day.”
The reporter interrupts me again. “And then you talked about the incident the day before?”
“Yes, exactly. After practice we drove together to my apartment. I’ve asked him if he wanted to drink something. He nodded so I’ve got us two bottles of beer out of the kitchen. Back in the living room I gave him one of the two bottles and sat down next to him on my white sofa.
I tried that stone-like face again and asked calmly, “Do you have an explanation for it or do you want me to shout at you again?”
“I- I don’t have an explanation. I really don’t know why I did it. I’m so sorry, really so sorry. Jin please, I’m so sorry!” He almost cried. I could see the tears in his eyes.
I didn't waver though. “Pi told me Johnny-san tries to separate us.”
His eyes widened. “Really? Oh… I- I really didn’t notice it was a trap. I can only repeat what I said before. I’m so sorry Jin.” He actually started crying now.
“Shh~ It’s okay now, don’t cry. Just promise me, don’t ever do things like that for him again” I said and held up my pinky finger.
“Yes, yes, yes. I promise!” He cried even harder but held up his pinky and we made a promise with the fingers we wore our rings on. I was kind of satisfied by that and felt a huge burden fall off of me. I hugged him tightly and tried to calm him, I whispered to his ear things like ‘I love you so much Kazuya, so so much.’
I was so relieved, because the Kazuya I had learned to love would never break a promise. Especially not a pinky promise.
But he did. He broke it only a few months later and KAT-TUN’s debut was announced.”
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