Only one truth
Only one truth
Hello everybody.
Like I said: This is my first English Fanfiction. So please don't be so hard to me. It's nothing special only a few thoughts.
I am glad to read your opinions about my one shot.
Yours Ito
Why did I hurt you? Why am I not able to understand. My heart cannot understand, what happenend between the two of us? Everytime I looked at you, he was standing between us like a shadow, that could destroy our love and our live. Why should Shinichi try to show me another truth? Why should he show me another reality?
It seems to be only a phantom, I know about that. But even if I know, my heart doesn’t tell me such things.
This silly litte thief! I hate him! It’s his damn fault! Why did I ask Shinichi about HIM?! I knew everything before and didn’t think about his feelings, his reactions, while talking about it.
Why were I afraid you could hurt me, if I trusted you too much? You could never hurt me I know now and I knew all the time. Is there any reason to mistrust you? You never gave me any.
If there wasn’t one person here on earth to mistrust, everything would be fine, but I wanted to talk to him tonight…
“Kid…” I whispered this name, standing on the top of the hotel I rented a room for this night. I was waiting for Phantomthief Kid on this roof. He was the one, Shinichi loved a few months ago.
“Here I am Hattori-kun.” I heard his voice a few secounds later and his white clothes were shimmering in the lamplight, when he came out of a dark corner and stood in front of me a few moments later. He glanced on me arrogantly and showed me in this way, that he knew why I invinted him to come here.
I wanted to get to know everything about THIS PARTICULAR SUBJECT of his past. But I saw, that he was hurt like Shinichi, when I asked him about it.
Even if I expected him to know my thoughts he asked in a cold voice: “Why did you invite me to come here, Hattori-kun?”
“There’s only one thing, we’ve to talk about…Kid.” I stood there my heart full of fear about the truth.
“You’ve to tell me before I’ll go Tantei-san”, he laughed at me in cause of my silence. Tantei-kun.. this was the name he gave Shinichi. This was not a chance, but I wasn’t able to prove it yet. I had to find the only truth in this case without Shinichi, so I insisted on Kid to tell me everything about his relationship to Kudô Shinichi.
Kid was shocked. I was not able to find any reason for his reaction, but I knew there had to be one. “Do you… do you really want to know EVERYTHING?”, Kid wanted to know, with a trembling voice. There was no confidence in his voice any more. This was not the Kid I met at some cases with Kudô. This was a completely different person. Was this his real self?
I nodded and a few minutes later it seemed, as if he had found an answer. “I cannot tell you everything Hattori-kun. I think Shinichi wouldn’t be amused about this, don’t you think so? But I’ll tell you our story… I got to know him as my real self and we fell in love with each other. So we met a few times a week, but I’m not able to tell you WHAT happened when we were alone. These times we were happy, but I had a lot of problems. Problems with my past, the Black Organisation, the police, with everybody on this world because of Kid. Shinichi told me to flee when I told him everything, and I did. Because of this I lost him the only person I’ve ever loved, but it was necessary for us. I love him, but it’s enough for me to observe him and to know that he has a strong partner.” Kid grinned at me, but I knew this grinning was a fake, was not real.
“Why Shinichi?” I was not able to ask more, but I wanted to know the answer.
“He’s a good guy. I love him in a special way. Perhaps you like him the same way.” His voice trembled again full of his memories and his feelings.
This was ridiculous I thought. This CHILD wanted to tell me HOW to love my boyfriend! What did he want me to understand?
“You don’t even know how much I love him”, I whispered.
“Of course I know. I know this feeling as well so if you hurt him, I’ll come back and hurt you more than you can ever imagine.” There was something in his eyes telling me to take this serious. So I wanted to ask him two things, even if I thought in the beginning I didn’t want to know it.
“Why did he leave you, when the two of you didn’t want to be alone? Why didn’t you fight for his love?”
“A thief and a detective are two different natures who match for a while but not forever. Did you really want me to fight for his love? I don’t think so. I am the PAST, you are the FUTURE. Haven’t you thought about this?” Kid asked me this questions, without jealousy or something like that. He only spoke to me, as if he asked a good friend to tell him the truth.
“I thought about it. But this past, you, were standing between us. I love him. I love him so much, but I can’t enjoy this love, when there are fear and jealousy inside myself.” This was the truth I searched for, but I could not tell Kid about this.
Kid only told me: “There’s nothing going on between the two of us anymore. Shinichi only loves you no other man neither a woman.” I was able to hear disappointance in his voice, but I ignored it.
“Thank you Phantomthief Kid”, I whispered.
“You’re welcome Hattori-kun, but don’t tell Tantei-kun about this meeting at midnight. Won’t you?” I nodded and he vanished in the darkness of the night, only with a goodbye on his lips. I imagined, that he would cry after this conversation, like I did, after I was alone in my room.
The next day I was standing in front of my beloved Shinichi, trembling and fearing his reaction. We had an argument about Kid and his relationship to him, but especially it was an argument about OUR relationship which made me nervous and being afraid of everything. So I met Kid.
“Shinichi… I… I was an idiot. I know you love me, not Kuroba. I only feared about it. I love you so much. I became jealous. Excuse me… please…”
It was a long evening, when we talked about our doubts, emotions and feelings.
In the end we lay in the bed thinking about everything, but then suddenly Shinichi asked a question I did not expect him to ask: “Why didn’t you ask me, how much I love you?”
“I don’t know. It was this… feeling inside of me. I can’t explain this, it was only there. Forgive me, please.”
Heiji gave him a short kiss and understood in the same moment, that everything he did to him was wrong. It was love that connected them and they did not want to lose each other. His green eyes looked into Shinichi’s warm blue ones. “I love you Heiji”, he heard Shinichi whisper near his ear and was only able to show, how much he loved him with his eyes, full of tears, because he wasn’t able to say a word. This love could last forever the two of them thought at this moment of joy.
Trust, Love and Live…
Could their relationship last for a little eternity?
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Hopely…
