first chapter
YEAH!
The great day has come!
Fucking yeah!
I'm sitting here in the Saturn of Berlin, waiting for Dir en Grey giving autographs.
First time they ever did in Germany!
So, the people arround me are mostly girls... young grils.
Okay, I'm not really old, too, but I'm not behaveing like a total fool, like these teenagers.
But there's something similar to 'em.
I have a special present for the band!
And I don't know why, but I think they'll like it.
With that thought I have a massive grinning in my face.
We still have two hours to wait...
Time to check out the guys in here.
Oh!
Did I forget to tell I'm gay?
Really totally gay!
Sorry, I very often forget to say this!
Hm...
Where I was to tell?
Oh, yes, the guys xD"
So.....
Hm...
Difficult to find 'em.
That's fuck...
I thought I gonna find someone for the night if it doesn't work with my present.
I mean, who could resist me?
I'm really sexy!
No, I'm not stuck-up, really, I just love my body.
And I'm not such a freaky fan.
But mostly I'm smooth and smart, not very tall, but smart at all.
You should see the huge smile in my face!
Besides I love my clothes.
In this moment I wear my favourite ones: a Dir en Grey shirt, a more or less tight, black, stone-washed jeans with some chains and blanks and against the unbelieveble cold this june, a Dir en Grey hoodie.
Yes! I love this stuff!
And I'm good-looking in it.
So what shall I do now?
If I talk to that girls, they might think I like 'em.
And I really don't!
Maybe I should prepare my present.
I just need a little sheet of paper and a pen.
I hope Toshiya will be able to read it xD"
Theres not much on that sheet.
Just my phonenumber, I guess everyone can read numbers, a simple and direct 'call me!' and my name in hiragana .
Oh, yes my name's Sadao.
It was my father's idea, because he's japanese.
But my mum wanted me a German name.
So my full name is Sascha Sadao Mogami.
Sounds very strange but I got used to it.
I put the sheet to my DVD which I want to have signed.
Now again it' time to wait.
...
...
BORED!!!
Why time can't pass by faster?
"dirty beside the beauty", it sounds out of my jeans pocket.
It's the messege-tone of my mobile phone.
My ex-boyfriend wishs me good luck with the present.
I told him 'bout that and all he did was laughing at me.
I know why he's not my boyfriend anymore -.-.
A nice 'fuck you twice' back and I turn it off.
Some time later it finally beginns.
Ouuhhhhh!
Nice sunglasses, guys!
I think I should have brought my ones too, when I look to some of those ugly fans.
Wow, Kyo don't wear ones!
Did he lose a bet?
After some fans it's my turn.
I smile all the time, but not that 'ouh-I-like-you-so-much'-smile, no!
It's a 'if-you-would-know-what-I-have-planed'-smile.
But I'm freindly at all.
And I don't know why, but they seem so surprised to see a guy, an optical clear guy, between all those girlies.
I don't need to make 'em shake my hand, they do it themselfes.
Also Kyo is really friendly.
After a proud-looking Kaoru, Toshiya is the next one.
At first the same things, like signing my DVD, smiling.
And NOW it comes!
When we shake hands, I give him the sheet, with an unresistable smile and the simple question:
"wanna have sex with me?"
