What do you want?
Have you wanted...?
All I can feel
Is hate
Although I thought
I would love you
But I failed
Now I'm hating you again
Because you aren't listening
You aren't writing
And that's hurting me
Has this been your aim?
Have you wanted me
To die
To cry
To suffer
Again?
Because it you wanted this...
Well, you did it right
I hope
You have fun
Seeing me crumbling!
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Do you care?
Now you're hurting me
Do you care?
Now I'm crying
Do you care?
Because I don't get an answer
And I'm waiting again...
Acutally
This hadn't been my aim
That I'm broken again...
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Sitting and waiting
I'm sitting around
I'm waiting
Waiting that school's finally over
Waiting that I can go home
Waiting that I'm seeing you
But at home...
I'm sitting around again
I'm waiting
Waiting for a message
Waiting for a phonecall
Waiting that you're coming to me
Why do you do this?
Why do I have always to wait
Wait that you're saying something
It isn't worth
All my pain, is it?
If you wanna be with me
Come to me
So I don't have to wait anymore...
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Scared
You're scared
Because of you friends
You're scared
That they're hating you
If you're telling them
That you love me
But it anyway seemes like
You don't love me
Although you're saying so
You're scared
Because you think you're different
But so I am
And everything what counts is
That we're together, doesn't it?
And now
I'm scared
Because I think
You don't love me
You're just playing with me
I'm scared
Because I think
You're hurting me again
Tell me what I can do now
So that we don't have to be scared anymore...
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Night
At night
I can't sleep
Because of you
Because I'm thinking of you
Because I'm thinking about you
At night
I'm awake
Because of you
Because I didn't get an answer
Last evening
Do you feel the same?
I'm tired...
Tired of being awake
Because of you...
----
You said...
You said
You'd loved me
But you don't wanna be with me
I can't understand this
Why are you telling me this frist
and then you're breaking my heart
I think
You were right
You are going to hurt me again
But why?
I can't believe it
Just like you
Because I've chosen you
But now...
I think
I've made the wrong decision
Maybe I have to stay alone
So I won't get hurt again...
----
I'll be there
I'll be there
To catch you
When you're falling
I'll be there
To cheer you up
When you're sad
I'll be there
To hold you
When you need it
But...
Will you be there
To catch me
Because I've been fallen so deep
Because of you
Will you be there
To cheer me up
Because I'm crying
Because of you
Will you be there
To hold me
When I need it
Because I'm needing it so much
Because of you
I thought
You'd loved me
So why don't I get this feeling
That it's really true...?
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Special 1 ~
I'm hating you
Although I love you?
This can't be the truth
But it seemes like it really is
Should I be sorry now?
----
Special 2 ~
I hate you
Although I should love
you
But it's over now
Because you ended it
Before it has begun
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Special 3 ~ Angry
I'm angry because you're not here
I'm angry because you're not answering
I'm angry because you're not listening
And this fury is making me so sad
Did you know this?
Did you know I'm suffering because of you?
And did you know
That I'm tired of waiting all the time?
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New Chapter, yeah~ xD
*dröl*
Well, Special 1 + 2 and 'Do you care' and 'Have you wanted' have been written last night 'cause I was so angry.
The other poems are from school. I was angry too, but more I've been confused, sad and so much more.. I felt so many feelings at the same time: Love, hate, fury, sadness, disappointment and much more...
*sigh*
Can you understand my feeling now, Dai?
Aishiteru,
Tenshi-chan
PS:
I'm excited
I'm scared
I don't know what to do
I don't know what to feel
Just because
I'm meeting you again..?
