Katsuki woke up the next morning and he was still in Eijiro’s arms, the alpha lay on his back and watched the ceiling, he was already awake for some time.
The omega sat up rubbing over his eyes. The skin around them was red and a bit sensitive. He felt hot. Eijiro looked at him, while moving his right arm a bit, Katsuki had slept on it and now finally some blood was rushing to his fingers again.
“How are you feeling?” Eijiro asked.
“I don’t know, weird” Katsuki answered honestly. It slightly rumbled in his stomach. He furrowed his brows.
Katsuki sat criss cross applesauce on his bed, even though he wore a big sweater and sweat pants, he shivered a little. He grabbed a pillow and hugged it.
Eijiro’s alpha growled, when he saw this, suddenly, Katsuki looked so young and vulnerable. He wanted nothing more than to protect him. Everything in him wanted to make Katsuki happy, but he knew he couldn’t – he shouldn’t.
He cleared his throat and sat up opposite of Katsuki, he had grabbed the Typhlosion Plushie and absent mindedly patted its head. “About last night … We still need to talk about that.”
“Yes! I-I know” Katsuki answered. “I am so sorry, again, I hurt you so much, I know I can’t make it better by just saying ‘I’m sorry’, but you have to believe me, I am so sorry” his voice was trembling. “P-please d-don’t hate me anymore.”
“Bakugo, I never hated you!”
Katsuki gasped. “B-but I-I mean, the things I did were terrible! I mean, I hate me for it, so y-you m-must hate me too.”
Eijiro leaned forward and cupped his cheek. “Look at me. I was hurt, okay? Hurt that you immediately went to Midoriya after we broke up. I know it was a shit move from me too, I should have expected this, after a day like that. It only seemed natural that you would find each other, as soon as I am not around anymore. I made the way free for you, but then got pissed when you actually went with it. This was on me, I knew the consequences. I had the wrong expectations, and I made it unfair for both of you. Okay? I completely get that I was the asshole in this” he looked him in the eyes while explaining his side.
Katsuki stared at him, confused. “Why are you saying this? I made the mistakes. You’re not the asshole, you could never! I hurt you! A-and what did you expect?” he asked carefully.
“I don’t know, that you would choose me over him?” Eijiro exhaled. “I still hoped that you would love me enough to not let me go. That you … that you would protest harder when I told you it was over. I … I should have chosen to talk to you and Midoriya at this time. Maybe we could have settled it then and there. Instead I chose to chicken out because I never thought we could make it work.” He shook his head and ran with his hand through his hair. “I was so jealous, ever since the summer camp you were closer to him again. You hugged him so much and I … I wanted that too, but my stupid alpha was too proud to ask for it.”
Katsuki had pressed his hands in front of his mouth. Tears were again in his eyes. “I … oh god, I should have noticed that. But my omega, he’s such a fucking bitch, I wanted to be close to you too, but it kept me away and made me focus on Deku …” Tears were dripping from his cheeks onto his pillow. “I used you! My omega knew that it wanted Deku, but it got jealous when some other omega was around you. I got scared that you didn’t want to be my friend any more that you would leave me for someone else, and it was scared that it wouldn’t work out with Deku, so it wanted to keep you around. I used you as a backup, and I feel so bad for it. Please forgive me!”
Eijiro’s gaze was sad. He had known it, but hearing it was even harder. “They were all right” he mumbled. “We are just too young and inexperienced. We shouldn’t have started it in the first place.”
Katsuki looked up to him. “I … yeah, you’re right” his voice was high and whiney.
Eijiro nibbled on this lower lip, thinking. He observed Katsuki. He tried to see him as the person he was before this all happened. “What do you feel for me?”
Katsuki looked like a deer in the headlights after this question. “I … uh …” his cheeks got redder. He had to avoid Eijiro’s gaze. “I still love you … while talking to my therapists … I realized it, how much I actually love you” He grimaced a little. “But I know that you won’t love me anymore, not after everything that happened. So, it’s the right punishment I guess.”
The alpha observed Katsuki for a long while. The omega seemed so nervous. Eijiro’s jaw was working while he decided what he should do with him. He only knew that he couldn’t be together with him, anymore.
He exhaled eventually. “Well, I really can’t love you anymore” he started. “It hurt so much the last time that I don’t want to put myself through this ever again. Even if we were allowed to date, it would probably end up not good. We’re too young and we really should focus on becoming heroes.”
Trembling, Katsuki sucked in the air, he nodded heavily. “Yeah, I thought that, it’s okay, I completely understand that. I would say the same if I were you.”
“But I don’t want this thing between us anymore” Kirishima added. Katsuki tilted his head in confusion.
“I … look, I watched you from time to time and it felt terrible to see you like this. I wanted to go over to you, but I feared that this would make it even worse. I didn’t know if that would trigger your omega to think that everything is great between us or not, it shouldn’t think that, because it clearly isn’t all sunshine between us. But I want us to get better, okay? I want us to be at least friends again, if you are okay with that. I don’t want us to fight any longer. I hate fighting. I’m so tired of it; I just want to move past all this.”
More tears welled up in Katsuki’s eyes. “I want us to be better too. I want us to be friends again!”
A smile appeared on Eijiro’s face. “Good, I’m glad to hear that.” It was an honest smile. “Should I bring Mina and Ochako over? So that you three can talk too?”
“Yeah, I think that would be good.” Katsuki nodded. And Eijiro stood up from the bed to go grab Mina and Ochako.
When he was alone, more tears rolled down Katsuki’s cheeks. He felt so relieved! Over the past couple of months he had build up a world for himself, in which Eijiro hated him, it was his way of dealing with the situation. Thinking that Eijiro hated him, made it easier to deal with his own emotions. He still loved him and this way he could make himself believe, that there was never ever a chance of getting him.
He stood up and walked over to the bathroom. He let the cold water run over his hands and he splashed it against his heated face. He would do anything to make a friendship with Kirishima work again. It was now on him, to get his feelings under control.
He scrunched his nose as a wave of nausea washed over him. He quickly leaned over the toilet and he started to puke again. God, he wished this was over soon.
Katsuki heard the door open again. “Bakugo?” Eijiro called.
“One moment!” the omega managed to answer between two waves. He heard rustling outside and a minute later the door opened Eijiro was again next to him, rubbing over his back.
When it was over, Eijiro helped him again, to clean him, before he was finally ready to go out. He was pale and tired. He held his stomach while walking back to his nest. Mina and Ochako waited patiently for him. “Sorry” he mumbled.
“Don’t worry” Ochako said.
When everyone was seated somewhere – Katsuki in his nest, Eijiro next to him and Mina and Ochako on the floor – there was an uncomfortable silence for a while. Mina and Ochako stared at Katsuki, but the omega stared to the ground. He was trembling.
Eventually Eijiro cleared his throat. “Well, Bakugo and I had a talk, he apologized for what happened and uh … we try to make at least a friendship work again.” He announced.
Mina’s and Ochako’s faces lit up when they heard it. “Really? You reconciled? That is good to hear” Ochako smiled.
“I want to apologize to you too. You got in between all of this and I ruined our friendship … and it is my fault that Deku left.” He murmured.
“I am sorry too, I was just so mad at both of you. I didn’t consider everything that happened and I was just so focused on the fact that you hurt Eijiro. I was pretty mean to you too, so I hope you can forgive me too.” Mina started.
“And I want to apologize too. I just rolled with it that was not okay” Ochako added. “And, no, you weren’t the reason that Deku left. He made the decision!”
“No, no, I was at fault, you had every right to be mad, and it is the same with Deku, I provoked him” Katsuki mumbled.
“Well, let’s just say, everyone sucked here, and leave it at that, okay?” Mina suggested. She didn’t want the situation to escalate by trying to force Katsuki to change his mind on that.
Katsuki nodded. “Okay, sounds good.” He smiled a little at them.
“So, I … uh … Do you want to try again to be friends?” Mina asked.
Katsuki looked at them. Hope shimmered in his eyes. “Yes, I want to try it again.”
Ochako stood up. “That would be great! I hope we can go back to be friends again too.” She put her hands together and smiled.
Mina got up too. “Yes, let’s try our best! We can overcome this situation!”
Katsuki nodded happily. “Yes, we will!”
Eijiro watched the three omegas, they shared awkward hugs, they were still not sure, how to handle the situation properly. A little bit of sadness flashed in his eyes, the only one missing now was Midoriya …
They talked for a while after that, before the other three had to leave for school. Katsuki stayed in his room and he would try to recover as fast as possible.
