Prolog
Title : Remember the Night
Author : Key (KeyJahn@hotmail.com)
Archive : feel free to keep it, but it would be nice if u tell me
Genre : shounen ai, romance
Rating : R
Band : Deg
Pairing : DxS
Comments : This is just a lil' story I kept in my mind like many others which want to
escape my crazy head, but this one reached the aim and here it comes...
Hope u enjoy!
~ Key ~
Remember the Night
Prologue
Morning sun rays fell through the reddish curtains, shining directly into the faces of the two persons lying into each others embrace on a futon. But it didn't wake them up, both were too deep in the lands of dreams.
There was another being in the apartment, something that didn't want to sleep...
"Woof, woof "
A barking echoed through the room, forcing his owner to wake up.
"Miyu!"
Came in a soft, but annoyed whisper from his owner who carefully placed the arm around his waist to the other side. He looked to the other one, amazed by the peaceful expression in the face.
'Just beautiful! So manly' He thought with a smile on his lips by himself.
Another whimper turned his attention back to his little dogie waiting next to him. He laid a finger over his mouth and looked at his pet with pleading eyes.
"Shhhh, you'll wake him up, give me just some minutes and you'll get all my attention. I promise!"
His dog seemed to understand, plodding slowly outside.
He sighted, it was just so unbelievable. All his waiting had come to an end and now he was finally happy. All this longing, observing for such a long time.
Of cause, there was pain, but he didn't regret anything, it was quit a small price for this reward.
"Die..."
The other one seemed to react to his name, because he began to move his body, yawning and stretching his arms until he appeared to realize something and his eyes snapped wide open.
The redhead looked straight into two soft brown orbs. It took him some moments to figure their owner out. Suddenly his breath became unsteady, hyperventilation was near and the soft impression gave way for worry.
"Is, is something wrong?"
Die didn't give an answer, but jumped out of the bed.
"What, what have you done to me?"
He screamed.
And Shinya backed away, too shocked to say a word.
Die stared at him and turned around. Some moments later he could hear the loud bang of the door, which sent shivers through Shinya's spin, but hardly so much like Die's last words.
'What have you done to me!'
It echoed through Shinya's head. Over and over and over again...
~~~~
tbc
Part 1
Title : Remember the Night
Author : key
Archive : feel free to keep it, but it would be nice if u tell me
Part : 2/?
Genre : shounen ai, romance, drama
Rating : PG14
Band : Deg
Pairing : DxS
Comments: It took me forever, but now I will post more often...I was kissed by the muse again...
~Key~
Remember the Night
Part 1
"Kao, do you know what's wrong with Die? He's so strange today!"
The black haired man let himself flopped down to couch next to their leader, looking concerned at the named redhead.
"Hmm..." Kaoru followed his look. "I don't know, but he's not the only one acting strange today. I mean, do you ever seen Shinya so unconcentrated? Better we talk to them after practice. Whatever it is that bother them, it affect the band."
Totchi nodded, running his hand through his longer hair,
"I get Shin-chan, ne?" He smiled to his lover, getting a smile back.
"Do as you're pleased, I'll not stop you." After a quick peck on the bassist check, he stood up, indicating the others that practice continue.
"OK, 'Jelly in spire', Die don't miss your part again and Shinya, onegai, the same tempo, if you slow down your beats like that our concerts will take five hours, with the same track list like a former 2-hour-concert!"
Shinya noticed it and went to his drum set, his eyes blank, thinking about the morning.
'What have you done to me?'
'I thought you would ...' Shinya was deep in his thoughts and missed the beat, again. But he didn't noticed.
"Shinya!"
Someone was yelling at him. So he looked up to see into the face of their leader, who seemed really angry.
"Shinya, you played the song more than one time, why aren't you able to do it like before, like the other million times? Is something wrong?"
The before angry face, was now very concerned, but the only answer was the drummer's shaking head.
“He just has to try harder!” Die said and looked annoyed, didn't facing Shinya.
Shinya's eyes were fixed on Die. Why did he said that, HE of all persons know the reason! He was the reason.
“I'll try.” His voice was barely hearable, just a whisper, but they understood him.
Kaoru nodded and the practice continued. How he hoped it would go smoothly, but it was crushed.
Die was nearly as bad as Shinya, but he stayed quite. Nothing would come out of this practice and everyone knew it. Kyo didn't gave his best as well, but he didn't mind anymore, with an unconcentrated drummer and guitarist this lack of motivation was understandable, he felt the same.
The time dripped painfully viscous, he just wanted this practice to finish. A look to Toshiya told him he felt the same. They really had to speak with Shinya and Die or else life would become really hard. He sighed again, he would end the practice soon, it was the best for his nerves.
He tried his best, so did Totchi, but Shinya became totally offbeat.
Kaoru stopped his playing. Like that it couldn't continue, his eyes traveled to Shinya and he took a deep breath in.
He had to be the leader, he had to think of his band and the atmosphere in this room was horrible.
“Shinya,” he went nearer to the drum set, trying to look into their drummer's eyes.”Are you feeling unwell? Did you catch a cold or is Miyu ill and you are worried? Please, what's wrong, this playing is not you. You can be better! Do you want to take a break?”
In his voice you could her the worry and worried he was, Shinya was nearly always the most strict one, always concentrating hard on what he was doing, even he himself wasn't that strict with himself. Something had happen, he was sure about that.
“He's simply bad! He lost his ABILITY!”
All eyes went to one person. The one with the red hair who wasn't at his best as well.
“YOU are the right one to speak Die! Your playing sounds like you were giving your guitar just yesterday as present!” Now it was Toshiya's turn, he sounded really pissed.
“Take a look at Shinya, he do have something, everyone can see it, what's your excuse and why are you like that? He's your friend!”
A bit exhausted he looked at Die, waiting for an answer from the redhead.
„Friend? He's no friend and he his playing sucks! We have to search for a new drummer!“ His words were harsh and everyone was shocked, that was not the Die they know.
Shinya just stared at him, not feeling how tears slowly found their way along his cheeks. His heart hurt so much, there was so much hate in Die's voice, he didn't know he could sound like that. And the worst, it was him that made Die like that. He was the one.
It felt like his heart was breaking, shattered into even smaller pieces then in the morning.
He couldn't stand it anymore, he stood up, more tears ran down his face.
One last glance at Die and he run, run out of this room, run away from the person which meant so much to him and which just showered him with so much hate.
Toshiya shook his head, he couldn't believe what he heard and looked at Shinya, just to see him disappear to the door beside him which closed with a bang. „Shinya!“
He put his Bass to a stand and followed him, earning the looks of his band mates.
Kaoru shook his head, Toshiya would find out what was wrong with Shinya, he was sensible enough and he would take his old buddy Die to his chest.
Toshiya tried to follow Shinya, he asked himself where the hell Shinya was. The drummer was no where to see, but he couldn't be that far away. He went through the corridors, he couldn't be out yet and those tears in Shinya's eyes really gave way to worry.
If someone had said something that mean about himself, he was sure he would cry as well, of cause he was now more „manly“ then some years ago, but still, something like that would hurt him badly. Die was Shinya's friend, how he just could say they were not? Something really bad must have happen between the two.
He stood in front the restroom, trying to hear something.
And there, a really hushed noise. He opened the door, the sound became stronger, louder.
„Shinya?“ he whispered carefully.
The sobbing stopped.
That just fortified Toshiya. He went to the door of one cubicle. He perched down, now he had to be careful. „Shinya, dear, would you open the door? I'm here for you. I will listen to you and, and I won't say anything to the other guys. Please, let me in...“
He waited, but nothing happened.
Toshiya sighed, what should he do?
But then he could hear it, the key was turned and the door opened slowly. There sat Shinya, his eyes puffed and all red, his cheeks wet from tears.
'Oh dear Kami-sama, I never saw him EVER like that!'
He couldn't stop himself. He embraced Shinya, pulling him into his arms, he stroke over his back, telling him sweet little nothing.
Shinya just sobbed harder, hiding his face in Toshiya's clothes. Toshiya rocked him back and forth and slowly Shinya calmed down, his fingers clinging into Toshiya's shirt.
„Do you, do you want to tell me what happen?“
Shinya shook his head, another tear running down his cheek. Totchi carefully wiped the tears away, getting some toilet paper from the roll beside him.
„It may help, I can maybe help you!“
Shinya starred at him. Should he risk it. He nibbled on his bottom lip. Slowly he nodded.
„I, I will tell you...“ he sighed long and pushed Toshiya away.
He sat up and looked at his band mate, his friend.
Shinya closed his eyes, he couldn't endure the gaze he would get for sure.
„I, I was away yesterday. Together with Die. It was a really, really nice evening...
We, we drank something, not too much. We laughed a lot. It became late, we missed the last train and, and we decided, we decided to go to my place, I couldn't let Miyu be alone for to long...“
He sighed long, at that moment everything had been still fine.
„I had this liqueur, it was a present from a fan and, and we wanted to try it. It was good, really good, I liked the taste and and...“
Shinya became unsure he couldn't tell it Toshiya, that, that was too embarrassing.
He felt a hand. He opened his eyes looking straight into Toshiya's eyes. They were full of warm feelings, he could tell him.
„Die liked it as well... and he then, then he said how beautiful I would be... I, I blushed. I told him, he, he should stop the teasing! I'm not like, like years ago! But, but he came closer... He smiled at me, telling me, I would be lovely, and the red would suit me, I, I would look great near him... matching his hair...
I slapped him... I mean, just moments ago it was nice and then he started to tease again!
But, but Die get hold of my hand, he pulled me nearer, I was so close to him...
I, I blushed harder, I felt it! Die, Die told me, he wouldn't tease. I would be beautiful. More beautiful than any girl he ever saw... he, he said he was, was glad that I don't have a girlfriend. I was shocked, I tried to push him away... But, but then, he, he kissed me...“
He closed his eyes, blushing hard. Slowly, very timid he spoke again.
„I couldn't resist. It felt so good. His lips were so soft. Never, never I had imagine that it would feel so good. He kissed me again, and again... then he looked into my eyes, they were so, they were sparkling... I, I always wished that he would look at me like that...
My heart was beating so hard against my chest and, and then, then he told me, told me, he, he would love me! Kami-sama, I was so happy! I kissed him. It was so, was so incredible. And we, we made out. I guess, I was never, never that nervous! But Die, Die he was so careful. We made love, it, it really felt like that... Just love. It, it wasn't, wasn't really painful, it felt so good. And, and Die told me, I, I could do it, do it with him as well, he would trust me!
It was so right!“
Toshiya stared at Shinya, he couldn't really believe it. It sound really sweet and he really could imagine the two of them together, they were always so close, he always thought they would be the perfect couple. But when everything was so right, so lovely, why was Die like that?
„We slept in each others arms, he had me at his heart, I felt so save and then, in the morning, we were still so close. I wanted to wake him up, I wanted to shower him with more kisses, feeling his hands on my body. But, but he, he shouted! He asked me, what I had done to him! He accused me, his look was full of hate!“
Shinya shivered, he felt so cold, he couldn't stop his tears, it hurt to much.
„I, I love him so much! And, and I thought he felt the same! Toshiya it hurt!“
Two loving arms surrounded his shaking form.
„Shhhhh“
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part 2
Title : Remember the Night
Author : <lj user=keyjahn>
Archive : feel free to keep it, but it would be nice if u tell me
Part : 3/?
Genre : shounen ai, romance, drama
Rating : R
Band : Deg
Pairing : DxS
Comments: Finally Die can tell his sorry...
~ Key ~
Remember the Night
Part 2
Kaoru examined his best friend. He didn't really know what to say. Those word. That was hardly the Die HE know since so many years, more than a decade. They were now alone, Kyo was outside, smoking, but he was sure, he just didn't want to get involved, hell he wouldn't really want to himself, but he was THE leader and the best friend of this dork beside him.
He took a deep breath in. OK, he had to do it.
„Die, what's wrong?“ Plain and simply, the easy way, nothing to complicated.
But nothing was the only answer he get.
Die sat on the couch, staring at the opposite wall. How could he tell Kaoru? It was too embarrassing! If it had been any unknown guy, a guy from the street, kami-sama, he could have forgotten the night, added it ad Acta! But it was Shinya! A guy he know since his high school years!
Kaoru stood up, he went to the small fridge they kept in their practice room. He got two beers and sat down again, beside his still quite friend. He opened one beer and hold it before Die's face.
„Here! Drink a beer... and then, please, nothing could be soo bad, that you can't tell it your buddy Kaoru!“
Die took it, his fingers clasping the can, a long sigh left his mouth before he took a long sip, nearly empting the whole can. He felt Kaoru's gaze on him, he knew the questions and he knew damn well that Kaoru wouldn't stop bugging him until he gave up and spilled it all out.
„OK...“ Man the can was really interesting. „I woke up today.“
„That's nothing unusual, I mean, you wake up everyday, ne?“
Kaoru could feel the smack on his arm. OK, not really time to joke, but maybe it would clear the atmosphere. He could hear a long sigh again.
„I woke up today, but I wasn't at home. And no, please don't say that's nothing new! I know I was with many girls before...“ Another sip from the beer, that felt so good. It would give him some energy, energy he needed! Badly!
„I woke up and, and there was this pain, you know, at my backside! It fucking hurt! And my head hurt and everything and, and then, then HE asked "Is, is something wrong?” Hell, everything was wrong!”
Maybe the beer wasn't such a good idea, rushed to Kaoru's mind. “Die, calm down!”
“Calm down? Calm down you say?” He jumped up. His voice became louder, nearly matching Kyo's screaming.
“I was fucking fucked by a man! A man, who I thought would be my friend! Tell me how can I calm down?”
He was panting, his breath fast and his face all red. He couldn't stand it anymore. He sat down again, looking down to the ground, his fingers buried in his red hair. Suddenly he felt an arm around him.
“Yes, I tell you to calm down! If you don't do now, I can't try to help you!” He couldn't remember his friend being in such a state, OK, his friend being in such a state in the last few years. “So I guess it was Shinya beside you, ne?” A nod was the only answer.
OK, so he was right, Shinya had slept with Die. That was a news for sure! That Die would seduce Shinya one time or another, that he expected for a long time! Everyone did, but this way...
“Do you remember what happened before? I mean at the evening?”
He shook his head, no, he couldn't remember, not one single bit. „Black out! We went to a bar, we did before, but never, never something like that had happened.“
Kaoru nodded slowly, he began to understand Die, it was hard but he got it.
„Die, Shinya is no one who would drug you or make you drunk just to seduce you! Something must have happen! He would never do something against your will!“
Die listened, somehow Kaoru's word sound right. Shinya wouldn't do something like that, unless... „You know, still waters run deep and dirty!“
„Die!“
„I get what you wanted to tell me!“
Die leant back. Ahh, not just the can was interesting, the ceiling has very interesting! He could spent the rest of his day like that, examine things, walls, hey, he had earned enough for a little apartment in a more rural area. He could spent the rest of his life like that! Would Kaoru become very furious? It would enrage him for sure!
„Die, how do you feel for Shinya?“
All his sweet thoughts of an escape were washed away. Thank you Kaoru!
„What, what do you mean?“
„You know what I mean!“ The was voice was stern. Really no escape.
„He, he is a friend! At least I thought he was.“ A glare from Kaoru let him swallow the next words. He sighed. He should be earnest. „I like him. He's like a little brother!“
„Just like a brother?“
Die stared at his best friend.
„This is a joke, right? Kaoru, I'm engaged! You know that! You were with me on the party when I asked her! Oh no, she will be so mad, I mean, I didn't come home! I was supposed to!“
Another really good reason to follow this escaping plan. Maybe another country. With high unemployment rate and low running costs. Then he could enjoy his life, drinking beer, playing a little bit guitar, maybe giving some youth some lessons. It would be a good life! A lot easier then his actual one. OK, he would have to say good bye to his beloved red hair, but it was too recognizable!
The clicking of the door interrupt his thoughts again. He didn't want to look at the persons entering the room. Die knew who was it, it couldn't be someone else.
Kaoru faced the door, he saw the two former really feminine band mates. Shinya's eyes were red, even hiding them behind his bangs didn't help much. He searched Toshiya's eyes, wanted to know some answers. Toshiya shook his head. No answers.
It wouldn't really work out today.
„What do you think about ending the practice now? A little break?“
A nod from Die, another one from Shinya and Toshiya. OK, a beginning!
„I will tell Kyo! OK, then we will see us at the next practice and I'll call you!“
He tried to smile at the guys. It didn't really worked, but hell, no one really felt like cheering and partying.
Die stood up, he went to his stuff, packing some things, he was deep into his thoughts, he didn't even saw Toshiya standing beside him. He went straight to door. Waving one time with his hand. „Bai!“ He left the room, left his friends. Out, out of here, into another room full of charges, to his finance.
He opened the door, turning the key very slowly. He know he would be shout at every second! He slipped out of his shoes, putting them beside all the others. She was here.
And she came nearer, he could hear her steps on the floor. He looked up, seeing into her eyes.
“Andou Daisuke! Where the hell were you tonight! I was worried! I send you dozen emails and tried to call you! YOU didn't call me! And a look at you tell me you are not injured! So TELL ME, WHERE WERE YOU?”
He twitched, that was, what he had expected, OK, he had expected even more!
“Ano, I, I was going out with a friend and, and we were in a bar and I missed the last train and it were close to his home, so I spend the night at his place and in the morning we had practice so I went from his place to work.”
No lie, not a single one, he just let out, that his friend had fucked him and he didn't really remember a single bit of it! And would never ever tell her! He had no clue how she would react, but not good for sure.
“And why you didn't call me! Or answer my messages!” She eyed him. Came closer. If she would have a normal boyfriend she could just snuffle on his clothes, searching for the smell of female perfume. But her boyfriend was a musician in a Rock band, a former Visual kei band and some of his band mates and friends wear female perfume.
“Uhm, battery? I forgot to load battery!” He looked to the ground. That was true as well. Easier then lies.
His girlfriend eyed him. Trying to find out if it was true or not. She slowly nodded.
“OK, I'll believe you! But tonight you will sleep on the couch!”
Die nodded as well. “I'll!” He sighted. The couch was everything but comfortable, but he earned it! If she would know what he did, the punishment would be a lot harder!
~*~*~*~*~
Hot kisses on even hotter skin, fast breathing a touch, a lick. Everything felt so good. Hotter, faster, sooo good. Nothing felt like that. The soft weight on his body. His fingers inter weaved in blond hair. Another kiss. He parted his lips, feeling the tongue slid into his mouth. Oh this tongue. He felt it on his tongue. Then it disappear. A sucking on his bottom lip. Then a nippling on his neck.
He searched again for the sweet lips. Needing them, feeling them! Hot! A shiver run down his spine. A hand stoking softly his side. His own hand slightly scratching over this lovely back. But this skin was so smooth.
“Kiss me!” his raspy voice demand. His wish was fulfilled. A harder kiss. Needing. Lust. He wanted all, everything! This body, all the feelings!
His legs were parted, pushed down. He was so vulnerable. “Are you sure?” He was so sure! He nodded. He wanted to feel! More, love, sex! A sharp pain. It was worth it! “More” A scream.
~*~*~*~*~
Die woke up. He sat straight on the couch, panting heavy. 'What the hell was that?'
His eyes traveled down, between his legs. He was rock hard.
He lay down again. This dream was incredible! Such a dream. But was it really a dream? The face was so blurry. He closed his eyes. Trying to remember every scene of it. The hands in front of his eyes. He tear them wide open. He knew them, he knew them for such a long time.
„No!“
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