The purple Iris that I wanted
Silently he, Ran Shuuei, sat there staring down on the dumplings that were left behind by him. He was alone now, because of his own foolishness.
Why did he had to do that? Why couldn´t he control himself that moment? His mind wandered to the purple iris that he had received back than. That iris now decorated his sword, was made into his flower, his symbol. But it was not only his but also Li Kouyuus. He had also received that flower. At the same time, the same flower. Shuuei shared it with Kouyuu. That was it what made him so angry. The purple iris wasn´t his alone. He wanted to posses that flower. It should only be his and his alone. The sole proof of trust from him. But he could not posses it and less could he posses what he really wanted. Him, the Emperor- Shi Ryuuki.
It had surprised himself, when he had realized that his feelings had moved on. From a loyal subject that protected him to simply a man that loved him deeply. When had it started? Since when was it more than loyalty? He didn´t know. That what he knew was that he had made the biggest mistake ever. Shuuei had shattered his own iris, his emperor.
Everything started with an invitation for dumplings. It was all normal. They talked with each other, joked and ate together. Then... why did it end like that? Why did he have to break the trust that was given to him for a short moment of lust and desire?
“I was such a fool... Ryuuki-sama...”
His hand was covering his eyes, his tears were flowing beneath them, down his cheeks and falling from his chin into his lap.
“Ryuuki-sama... Forgive me...”
He had violated all of him. Him, who he should have cherished, protected, served...
“I only... wanted to have the iris... The purple iris that was untouchable... Instead... I broke it... The purple iris that I wanted...”
The next day General Ran Shuuei received a different flower as his symbol, a broken one. The sign for betrayed trust...
