Against my will
it's all inside my head
they say it's not the right time to be dead
and i try to understand
but it's not easy with a knife in my hand
I loose control when I am down
I can't resist
the only thing that counts
is to exist
you make me feel like I am nothing
the fear inside my head
makes me feel like I'm not dead yet
and I try to understand
but it's not easy under your command
I loose control when I am down
I can't resist
the only thing that counts
is to exist
you make me feel like I am nothing
Don't wanna lie
about the time
we used to save it for a while
I don't need your command
I hate myself
but it feels okay
you make me feel like I am nothing
against my will
