Not as planned 1 - Katsuki Bakugo von Puraido (A/B/O Verse) ================================================================================ Kapitel 36: ------------ Izuku had to leave about two hours later. He couldn’t control himself any longer. He felt bad, but he didn’t want to wake up Katsuki either. But his excuse was that he had to go back to the other building, they were still not allowed in the normal dorms. Katsuki woke up in the middle of the night in an empty bed. He was a bit confused since he had slept so long. He felt empty and cold, that his alphas weren’t here. Yawning he got out of bed. He used the bathroom and then went down to the common room for a 2 AM snack. His stomach was growling. He shouldn’t have slept so long, now he was somewhat awake and going back to sleep would be really difficult. He hated that. Why didn’t they wake him up before they left? He knew that they still had to sleep in the other building, but still … He came down to the kitchen and saw that the light was on. To his surprise, Denki was still up. “Oi, what are you doing here?” Katsuki asked. Denki looked up, eyes wide and a deer in headlights look in them. “Uuuhh, nightmare” he said. There was no point in lying to Katsuki. “That’s why I went down to find some snacks … A-and you?” “Hm, I’m hungry. Haven’t eaten earlier.” He shrugged and looked towards Denki. “Are you still having nightmares about Deku?” “Yeah, a couple of days ago, I had a panic attack, when I was kinda alone with him.” “Oh … that bad, huh?” “Yeah, I am seeing a therapist today … I am nervous” he mumbled. Katsuki moved to the fridge and looked insight. There was not much left, they had to go shopping tomorrow. “Want some scrambled eggs?” he asked, looking back over his shoulder. “Sure.” Katsuki took the ingredients and walked over to the stove. He got a pan and started to prep the eggs. Denki just sat on one of the chairs, browsing his phone. “Did they sleep with you?” he asked after a few minutes. Katsuki flinched and his cheeks got hot. “What?” “Izuku and Eijiro. You smell like them, did they sleep next to you?” Denki clarified. “Ah” Katsuki sighed in relief. That was what he meant. “Yeah, they did for a while. But they must have left while I was asleep.” “Oh …” Denki bit his lower lip. “I wish I could brush it off that easily.” Katsuki put the scrambled eggs on two plates and brought them over to the counter. “Some day you will. I mean, even I feel sometimes … not good when they are around. I was afraid they would be mad at me, for stealing stuff from them.” He admitted. “You stole stuff from them?” Denki looked at him wide eyed. “Yeah … some shirts and stuff. But they were pretty chill about it, even left me some of their shirts.” Katsuki smiled. “Wow, that’s nice …” the beta stared sad on his plate. “I … wish I was as brave as you …” “What now?” “I mean … you have the full attention of two alphas you like … I can’t even …” he stopped himself. Katsuki raised his eyebrows. “You mean Shinso?” Denki’s eyes widened and he blushed deeply. He looked at Katsuki. “W-what d-do you mean? I-I don’t l-like Hitoshi this way!” he stuttered. Katsukis face was unimpressed. “You have a major boner for this dude. It’s so obvious, it hurts” he deadpanned. “I-I have not!” Kaminari whined. But Katsuki’s stare didn’t change, it made the beta feel uncomfortable. He sighed. “… Okay, you’re right.” His cheeks were burning. “Of course I am right! You’re so obvious with it” he smirked. “Is it really so bad? Gosh, this is so embarrassing” Denki covered his face with his hands. After a few seconds however, he sighed. “But it is whatever … I am sure he’s not interested in me …” “This again? You don’t need to force it, do you?” “No, I don’t have to … but I want to tell him. But … every time I see him, I start to freak out. He attacked me too, and that scared me. It’s so confusing.” “Maybe you see clearer after you talk with the therapist? If you’re still so afraid, than it might not be a good idea to confess or anything”, Katsuki said. “Yeah, you’re right” Denki exhaled. He then looked over to Katsuki, he was eager to change the subject away from him. “So, what about you? Which one do you like more? Or what’s going on between you three … or five if you count the girls.” This time Katsuki blushed. “Nothing is going on. We’re just cuddle buddies” he coughed a little, to mask his embarrassment. “C’mon! It’s obvious too that you have a crush on both of them. But you know that this relationship is doomed, right?” “Pah, what are you talking? I am not crushing on them! I don’t want to be in a romantic relationship with any of them!” Katsuki got defensive. “Right, you seem to forget, that I brought you over when your heat kicked in, and you always wanted to go to ‘your alphas’. You can’t tell me that you don’t feel anything for them.” Katsuki pouted, his cheeks were burning now. He clenched his fingers around the fork. “So, what if? Like I said, high school romance is probably not gonna work out” he sounded frustrated. “You already know that you can’t keep them both for forever, right?” Katsuki looked at the half eaten eggs. He nodded. “Yeah, I thought about it a lot while they were gone” he started. “It’s so frustrating but you’re right, this relationship is doomed” he sounded so bitter. “They don’t hate me, but when time comes, they will probably leave me. I know that there are better omegas out there. If not, they still have Ochako and Mina. It’s more likely they would choose them over me” Denki could hear his voice quivering. “And I know that they must struggle, when they are both near me. They still struggle to keep their feral state in check. I felt the tension while cuddling with them. I am well aware, that I cause them pain. That’s why I am such a bad omega. I am not supposed to cause them pain!” He sounded desperate. Denki moved one chair closer to Katsuki and put carefully an arm around him. Katsuki shivered a little, but didn’t resist. “But I can’t fucking stop it! I want them both, I can’t decide which one I want more … I tried to convince myself that this is purely platonic but who am I kidding?” he huffed and pushed the half eaten plate with eggs away from himself. He leaned his forehead on his knuckles. “Ever since Eijiro fucking kissed me, I don’t get it out of my head. Yes, during my heat I wanted to get fucked by them. It’s fucking disgusting how bad I wanted it. I even talked about having pups with them …” He grimaced. “What the fuck is wrong with me?” “First love, huh? It sucks” Denki shook his head. “Yeah … it really does. And they make it worse for not pushing me away. They just continue the cuddles with me, and I am too much of a fucking egoist to say no to them. I know it, this will not end well, I don’t want them to go feral because of me, to rip their throats out, but I don’t have the strength to push them away either.” “What are you going to do about that?” “I guess I just suck it up, every fucking second of it, as long as I can, because I fucking know, that this will end as soon as something like sex or mating or stuff comes up. They can barely hold themselves back, when it comes to cuddles, so this will be a no go …” he gulped. “That is a really bad situation. Normal alphas alone are very possessive, they don’t like to share their omegas. That they are willing to share you like that is really, really unusual” Denki mumbled. “Yeah, it is. Gosh, why did I start this in the first place? My stupid omega hormones had to fuck up everything. I never thought I would get feelings for my best friend let alone my childhood friend.” Denki looked at him. “Man, that’s a damn shitty situation.” “Jup, it is” he exhaled. “But like I said, I just take it how it comes. I can’t make a decision, at least not how it currently is. I will just … enjoy the ride until it ends.” He closed his eyes and enjoyed the feeling, as Denki rubbed small circles over his back. Damn it that he had become so touch starved. After a while Katsuki took the fork again and finished his eggs. He was tired now, he knew he had to get up in like two hours but he wanted to sleep just a little bit. They cleaned up the kitchen and headed back to the elevators. The boys went upstairs and disappeared in their own rooms. Denki would try to sleep as well. He felt a lot better now. Katsuki fell in his nest and even though it was too warm for it he put all of the blankets over him. He rearranged his pillows that they would surround him as tightly as possible. It was not the same tightness as with the alphas, but it helped to comfort him a little. Hosted by Animexx e.V. (http://www.animexx.de)