Lyrics von Aktionismus ================================================================================ Kapitel 1: Untitled ------------------- The stars so shy, hidden behind a face of mankind Still, they deliver a fierce chill for my skin to endure No matter how many broken clocks I wind One fact I cannot change will always be there for sure No matter how many sleepless nights I have Can't see a single thing that makes me feel so helpless No matter how many silent hours are left I turn myself away, just one more time, nevertheless When I finally wake up at noon I don't care what time it will be Lives turn theirselves way too soon My circumstances aren't neat The moon contains all their attention till the very end Piercing through the darkness, the sun turns pale But the body of the scar have their hours to fully mend Before long its beauty will get lost in a gale Up until then it's hard to let my body rest in peace Before long ones glory will be lost in sunlight Turn it upside down, can't solve it piece by piece And before long all I face is my lonely night As the broken clock hits midnight I'm neither scared nor lost This is a lone pointless fight The only force I hate the most The sky changes its color time and time again. As my clock usually points out times I can barely believe. Fall asleep again just to wake up once again. over and over again. But never lose the courage to move on and on and on. Finally, time starts behaving I take a breathe, ignore my pulse Am I human, dead or alive? Will I understand a human's use? Kapitel 2: Untitled 2 --------------------- Silent screams in my head I can't ignore I try to move but I can't no more Sobbin in front of my eyes I can't ignore I try to look away but can't anymore Can't even lend you a hand to grab to escape from hell How am I supposed to tell how deep you fell? Willing to take nothing but little risks just to protect The song I've been playing has been ejected Moving on, standing still, thinking about a solution Can't hurt to feel this ironic desperation I've taken the pain instead of you is what I wished for Until I realize that you're done for I have to try harder than anyone else My final assumption meant to be false But how to save this lovely, little cat When I lost it all in my latest bet Didn't even bother telling me the latest development I'm still living through this futile evolution And I will wait for you, even more than I did before Can I honestly trust my optimism for sure? I cannot tell how many wrongs I had commited long ago Shouldn't have given it another wasted go But here I am - crying in vain; won't chance anything And I have nothing left but this on last thing: Believing, and believing in his final form But believing still isn't the lastest norm I'm old fashioned; I'm done for, desperated In the last seconds I've been annihilated Kapitel 3: Untitled 3 --------------------- I'm lost in my dream; lost as the morning arises from its sleep Was I dead or barely kept alive in these last couple of hours Did I live through days or just through seconds; As these few seconds passed by my eyes at least a thousand times Hard to remember, even harder to forget Wouldn't it hurt if this madness stopped? Easy to deny, even easier to give in every night It could hurt me if I changed the way it is Can't remember the last time I've been glared by the sun Been trapped in the darkness for too many month Have I found my light or has it just found me? Hold on to that chance to regain my vision once again Can't even remember the way I look by the curious gaze I gave my mirror image Go on and on, as I'm recognised by all these familiar faces I hardly remember Every morning I wake up The mirror lies to me Denies honesty all along Won't catch my reflection I'm lonely in the evening; lonely even before the sun leaves me Did I survive or am I merely reborn after all the time I've spent Couldn't do another step with exhaustion pinning me down And I really tried to remember a single thing I've done Haven't done anything but being scared of tomorrow And all the same thoughts yet again Hard to remember, even harder to forget Easy to deny, even easier to stay up all night Can really well remember when I've been glared by the moon It gave me light while darkness blossomed within me Has this light found me, or have I just found it? Hold on to that slight possiblity of falling asleep eventually Circumstances seem to remember me as they disturb my calm everytime I try Go on and on, just to avoid all these familiar things I can't stand yet Every morning I wake up The truth is within reach It won't face me in regard As it catches my reflection Kapitel 4: Untitled 4 --------------------- The world faced its end But even though it must have been without the seas, all the different places and the humanity. Interject an ejected tape Blame this relationship for a crucial change Be ready for the next ride This memory has been swallowed like bitter pills Here I stand to find myself A broken doll complaining about freedom and youth My might remains in stealth Some lonely thoughts; thinking about them and truth They need alot of corpses to cross this sea I just need my voices to reach them Release this pain, engage another gear Bring it on for an endless cure I've been pacing around this court An ocean right in the middle of my ground And in my arms is just a single word A declaration of intention left to be found I've been taking place in this world for several decades It's like going through the alphabet And my eye hits the spot; will I realize too late? All in; this shall be my final bet Sink the ship but don't drop off, cause light leads the way to reformation As you reach the height of zero feet; light will always remain in silence But the territory, all the forsaken animals will stand in contradiction So see them falling, struggling, they are vanishing; toghter, all at once Even a candle may reach a point where its light fades With my very own hands I'm able to turn it off Such a beautiful atmosphere, piercing thorugh the shade Air feels bright tonight, touching my skin so soft Kapitel 5: Untitled 5 --------------------- The ground so dark I cannot fall While I take the next step into a new world My chosen bridge with small legs The water is near, I just cn't change the pace I've set This moment is proben to be the little chance I had to grab to bring absolution to the demons walking so silently next to me. Simply a path to share. Desperation and harmony get along hand in hand. When will my journey end? I'm honestly tired of crashing every single decision Please tll me how it can mend; Every lone scar I left to be a reminder of how i used to be This scary, endless race My temptation forces me to create new opportunities again And so the only space Filled with the fear of being changed through horrible circumstances The sky so crey I cannot touch While I take the next step in this olden world My chosen stairs with enourmous legs Rain eventually appears I just can't restore the peace I've had My demons are determined to be the largets change I had to go through to reach either heaven or hell. But I desperately long for a forsaken place to let my restless sould find a home. Endlessly, the present time seems so different from before. Why can it burn me down From within; with an almighty thought of forsaken dreams Some angels have gon to rest What the hell will keep on looking after me, if my journey ever ends My moans demand more than this A safe home; a foolish relationship to tolerate my god's cruelity An unanswered scream in this hollow Just change the being I've shown for so many years now The air so frest I cannot breathe While I truly fly through foreign spaces for the first time My chosen road hat possesses a true heart Sunshine will be restored once I've dropped every present burden Kapitel 6: Untitled 6 --------------------- The stars so shy, hidden behind a face of mankind Still, they deliver a fierce chill for my skin to endure No matter how many broken clocks I wind One fact I cannot change will always be there for sure No matter how many sleepless nights I have Can't see a single thing that makes me feel so helpless No matter how many silent hours are left I turn myself away, just one more time, nevertheless When I finally wake up at noon I don't care what time it will be Lives turn theirselves way too soon My circumstances aren't neat The moon contains all their attention till the very end Piercing through the darkness, the sun turns pale But the body of the scar have their hours to fully mend Before long its beauty will get lost in a gale Up until then it's hard to let my body rest in peace Before long ones glory will be lost in sunlight Turn it upside down, can't solve it piece by piece And before long all I face is my lonely night As the broken clock hits midnight I'm neither scared nor lost This is a lone pointless fight The only force I hate the most The sky changes its color time and time again. As my clock usually points out times I can barely believe. Fall asleep again just to wake up once again. over and over again. But never lose the courage to move on and on and on. Finally, time starts behaving I take a breathe, ignore my pulse Am I human, dead or alive? Will I understand a human's use? Hosted by Animexx e.V. (http://www.animexx.de)