Not good enough   von Gepo
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                       Kapitel 8: A bubble of happiness
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Tatsuya had woken in Atsushi´s arms and exchanged some more kisses. Those
people sucking off each other´s faces had always seemed strange to him but it
felt so good to feel Atsushi´s lips, tongue, hands … he shuddered to even
remember. It had felt so good. He feared what sex would feel like. If it was
even better than this he didn´t know how to keep from simply melting. He
already had a strong urge to take off his collar but he knew it was nothing but
hormones. No matter how good this felt, it was a test. Would his attraction hold
over time? Or would he grow tired of caring for his boyfriend?
Boyfriend. Tatsuya grinned. Said boyfriend looked completely content just lying
in bed with him, exchanging lazy kisses and breathing in his scent. He kinda
felt the same. Atsushi still smelled heavenly, even if he smelled of bed right
now. But that strong Alpha scent, the bit of arousal … no, bad Tatsuya, it was
morning, they had games today. No lazing around in bed. Atsushi needed hours in
the bathroom, they needed to get up.
His boyfriend just followed his directions without complaint and did not even
try to cheat on brushing his teeth. Either he knew Tatsuya would not let him
cheat or his happiness made him more compliant. Either way they were punctual
for breakfast. Tatsuya took Atsushi´s hand in his and directed him to their
breakfast room. In his opinion everyone could know that this gorgeous creature
was his. Even after their shower they smelled of each other and that was fine as
well. Everyone except for the two sharper Alphas of their team greeted them like
normal. For most guys here it seemed normal that Tatsuya led the other around by
holding his hand.
The first year Alpha came to stand next to him at the buffet and asked: “Are
you actually together now?”
“Yes!” Tatsuya smiled widely.
“Are you sure, man? I mean … he´s attractive, okay, but … he´s as dumb
as a post. I don´t mean that in a bad way, it´s just … you are thrice as
intelligent. I like him, I like you, I just worry. Do you think this will work
out?”
“I don´t know.” Tatsuya shrugged his shoulders. “We´ll just try. Who
knows. I´ll do my best not to abuse him.”
“You?” The other boy blinked before looking at Atsushi for a few seconds.
“Okay, yeah, I get it. There´s a lot of opportunity. He´s more like a pet or
a child you take care of.” He sighed. “And who will look after you in
this?”
“Me?” Tatsuya blinked.
“Yeah, you. You look after him and I am sure Murasakibara is adequate for all
physical needs but who gives you comfort and offers you advice and all the other
stuff that´s supposed to happen in relationships?”
Good question but not one he wanted to answer right now. Instead he said:
“When have you become this mature?”
“Uhm.” The other blushed and fiddled with his plate. “All of us nerds have
social competence training. Just like the abusive Alphas have boundary training.
Don´t you Omegas have any special classes?”
“We have child-rearing as well as self-protection classes.” Which were both
pretty cool and down-to-earth. About half of the Omegas had babies already, so
they were able to practice with real babies. He never thought of himself as the
mothering type but he enjoyed those classes immensely. Playing with babies was
great.
“Yeah, so … if you ever need someone to listen, talk to me, okay? I don´t
know if I am any good but it helps to vent, you know?”
“Thank you.” Tatsuya smiled at the other. Had he just made a friend? “I
will.”
“Morning, Himuro,” their coach greeted.
“Good morning, Coach Araki.” Most likely that smile would not leave his face
today. Maybe not ever. How was he supposed to play like this? Maybe he would
grin his opponents into confusion.
“You look happy.” She smiled back and gazed in Atsushi´s direction who was
obliviously stuffing his face. “He does as well.”
“That might be because of breakfast,” he joked and winked at her. “Is it
bad that we skipped the recording of today´s opponents?”
“It´s just the InterHigh, what do you think?” She did not look angry
though. “Just come tonight for the quarterfinals and finals.”
“Sounds good to me.” So today´s opponents would most likely not be the
hardest. Good to know. He should still watch their shooter during warm-up.
He finally picked his own food and went to sit with his boyfriend. Boyfriend. It
triggered another goofy grin.

One of their opponents was a bitter team who seemed to know even before the game
that they would lose. So they tried their best to rile the Yosen team up. As the
Alphas were pretty immune to being called “stupid monkeys” - even Atsushi
did not bat an eyelash while he normally rose to every provocation, it was a bit
disturbing honestly – they focused on Tatsuya. By now words like “whore”,
“bitch” and “cutie-pie” did not reach him anymore but his boyfriend
growled lowly and asked: “Can I crush them, Muro-chin?”
“In the game, Atsushi.” He just smiled at the other. “Crush them and I´ll
give you a kiss.”
“Sounds good.” It was how his boyfriend got his first very public kiss.
Tatsuya heard a reporter snap a picture of it and just decided that he didn´t
care at all. He was an Omega. Let them call him a bitch who slept his way into
the team, they would do that anyway. Let them call him a vixen that let a
miracle player astray. Their opinion did not matter. No one but his coach and
teammates would ever take him serious anyway. Maybe he would have a basketball
career, maybe not. Maybe he would not be the first basketball playing Omega in
the NBA. There were other things he could do just as well. Maybe he would be a
mother after all and simply mate with the coolest basketball player there was.
Right now he felt like doing exactly that.
It was again their coach who asked later at lunch: “Are you sure, Tatsuya?”
He did not need any context to know what she was asking: “A relationship with
Atsushi could never be secret, so I won´t even try.”
“I guess you are right. It´s not like they would have ever accepted you in
the JBL anyway. It´s a shame though. You are such a good player.” She sighed.
“I wish there were more players like you. You´re a target because you are the
only Omega playing high-school basketball.”
“Atsushi told me about a teammate at Teiko, someone called Kuroko Tetsuya. He
is an Omega as well, he was Teiko´s sixth man. Do you know if he still
plays?” Not that he would expect that after leaving school in their third
year. Most likely he had finally found a worthy mate and become pregnant with
the right man´s kid. Hopefully. Maybe he had been knocked up by nth bad guy
instead. With his history anything was possible.
“Do you know which school he went to?”
Tatsuya just shook his head, so the coach nodded in a final gesture: “Maybe
you´ll see him at the InterHigh. I doubt it though. I am friends with a lot of
coaches, I think one of them would have told me if they suddenly had a great
Omega on their team. The gods know how much I shocked everyone by telling them
about you.”
“You did?” Tatsuya blinked in surprise.
“Of course I did! I was shocked too. I have to admit, I was prejudiced before
as well. But you blew away all of my doubts. You´re one of our aces, Himuro,
you´re really good. Don´t let anyone tell you otherwise. No matter what the
other teams say, no matter what the press say, you are a great basketball player
and you have earned the title of “ace”.”
He had to blink away his tears this time. Gods, that was … wow. He knew that
his coach liked him but that she thought of him this highly? Wow. He had never
known that someone would ever think this highly of him. It was mind-boggling.
“Why are you crying, Muro-chin?” Atsushi asked him, suddenly sitting beside
him.
“Oh.” He smiled upon seeing his boyfriend. “Coach Araki was saying
something nice and I was really moved.” Not that he really cried but he had
teary eyes. How had Atsushi noticed that? Normally he was completely preoccupied
with eating.
“And then you cry?” The other looked interested as if he had never seen
something like that.
“Yes, I sometimes cry when I´m happy.” Tatsuya smiled. “Have you never
cried out of happiness?”
“I don´t think so.” He scratched his lavender-colored hair.
“Thank you for offering comfort anyway.” The Omega kissed his boyfriend.
“That was very sweet of you.”
“You smelled funny.” Well, his usual bluntness did sound awkward sometimes.
But Tatsuya knew he meant well by it.
“Then thank you for keeping track of my smell and caring for me.”
“It´s what boyfriends do. Right?” Atsushi looked at their coach.
“Yes, you´re doing well. Isn´t he?” She smiled at Tatsuya who nodded.
“He´s doing great.”

They also won their second game of the day and spent all of their evening
watching recordings for the two final games they would have on the next day.
Both did not look easy but Tatsuya was sure they could do it. Honestly he could
not see Atsushi losing at all. Their opponents would need a technique even more
invisible than his own double-shoot. His boyfriend was a lanky teenager but that
gave him great benefits in their sport. Now if all those string-like muscles
would develop into muscle mass … oh dear, it got him salivating. His boyfriend
would only get more gorgeous.
Thankfully the last day was also free of bullying. By now most players seemed to
know that for one he wasn´t a useless accessory and secondly there was a big,
mean Alpha growling at anyone that made moves on Tatsuya in any way. So Tatsuya
was able to enjoy both games, pleasantly exhausting himself in the process. He
let himself be swept up by Atsushi after they won the final and gave him a kiss
later when they were standing beside the court. He turned to go shower when his
sweaty boyfriend wrapped an arm around him and whispered in his ear from behind:
“Muro-chin? Do I get a reward for winning?”
“You´ll get some snacks,” Tatsuya promised.
“Coach will give us snacks. I want a reward from my boyfriend.”
He held still for a moment. Did Atsushi mean … could he? His last captain had
rewarded his players with sex with their team Omega, so maybe … how could he
ask that? If that was not what Atsushi meant he did not want to give him ideas.
So he asked: “What do you mean exactly?”
“A blowjob.”
Tatsuya had to cough in surprise. Okay … that was direct. Clear. Well, it
certainly answered his question. Atsushi definitely thought about sexual things.
And he was used to rewards in form of sexual favors. That was …
disconcerting.
“Atsushi, you´ll get such rewards when you please me, not when you please
people in general. I know your last captain organized sexual favors for playing
well but that is not how it´s normally done. You get a good feeling and sweets
from our coach for winning but not sexual favors.”
“For what do I get those?” Of course Atsushi had no shame concerning this
topic. He did not get how the concept of “get sex for doing something” was
wrong. For him it was logical and he had never learned differently.
“For pleasing me. Me as a person. Like when those guys were mean to me and you
defended me.”
“When I played the match for you?” His boyfriend looked deep in thought.
“So I get rewards for matches that mean something to you?”
“Maybe.” Tatsuya smiled. “And sometimes you don´t have to do anything, I
just need to be in a good mood. Sexuality is not something that is clearly
linked to what you do. It´s more complicated.”
“So I don´t get a blowjob for the game.” There was a pause but Atsushi did
not let him go. “But maybe I get a blowjob because you´re happy we won?”
“Maybe.” His smile turned into a smirk. “The shower would need to be
empty, everyone already finished but not waiting for us impatiently. How about
we go and see what the situation is?”
“Yes!” In a millisecond Atsushi wasn´t standing behind him anymore but
tugged at his arm to make him follow faster.
Tatsuya could not help himself, he just had to smile like crazy.

Atsushi looked grumpily at every other guy in the showers. Tatsuya did not know
if it made them leave sooner but they were the last to go in and soon all others
had left. It made his boyfriend look at him with a sparkle in his eyes.
“Okay, okay, you´ll get your wish.” Tatsuya fondly shook his head before
coming over. “Damn, you´re already big and you are not even erect. I´m not
sure I can swallow this whole.” Most likely it would need practice. He was
used to sucking cock but not one this size.
He kneeled in front of Atsushi and kissed the shaft, licked the head and suckled
the balls. Together with his hand he had his boyfriend erect in no more than a
minute. It made him lean back and appraise what he was about to do. He was an
Omega, he loved cock, no question about that. But his boyfriend made him shudder
and not in the best of ways. His cock was huge, massive even, it was …
definitely too big. If they were to have anal sex they would need at least half
an hour of stretching before that would fit into him. And he would still be
sore! Same with a blowjob. He might fit the head into his mouth but he would
have to practice on deep-throating this. Even with the head filling his mouth,
he could nearly fit both hands around the shaft. It was insane how big this cock
was. He knew he would love it and be spoiled for the rest of his live once he
got used to it but … it would need some serious training.
He decided not to start training today. He would give his boyfriend a nice
half-blow-half-handjob and that would be enough for a first time. Maybe later
this evening they would try some more. Right now he still had to get over the
horror that was his boyfriend´s erect penis. But damn if he didn´t feel like
coming just imagining the possibilities. His ass throbbed in the beat of his
heart. Good thing he had brought condoms but he would need to buy extra long and
XXL next time. While this cock wouldn´t rip a condom, it would be like fitting
a glove over a foot. It simply made no sense.
Atsushi looked damn well pleased any way, grinning right until dinner.

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